Nightmares

I heard some nasty sounds outside my window last night. Sounds I've never ever heard before. They came in like sequences and they were loud, high pitched squeals. I'm a huge scaredycat (as in I'm scared of the dark and therefore sleep with my drapes open), so just sat in my sofa and didn't have the guts to turn around and look outside the window to see what it was.

In the end four cups of tea and a bottle of water took it's toll and I had no choice but going. I swear my heart was louder than the TV every time I passed a window and didn't feel safe until I was in the bathroom (which is one of the only rooms with no windows). The sound stopped when I was done peeing, and even though I was relieved as hheell, I couldn't sleep because I was still scared, and the drapes in my room were up.

And around 2 am I had to send my boyfriend (giggles it's still fun to say it) a message whining and complaining about how scared I was, and this morning he sent me a message saying he had a nightmare tonight. Being a person who rarely have nightmares, I said I felt sorry for him (I hate, no loathe, having nightmares. Since it doesn't happen often, I become sincerely freaked out about it ever time I have one), and he was playing butch and saying he doesn't even notice them.

So I started thinking about nightmares.

Definition from wikipedia

A nightmare is a dream which causes a strong unpleasant emotional response from the sleeper, typically fear or horror, being in situations of extreme danger, or the sensations of pain, bad events, falling, drowning or death.

And furthermore;

Nightmares were widely considered to be the work of demons and more specifically incubi, which were thought to sit on the chests of sleepers. In Old English the name for these beings was mare or mære (comment; the letter "æ" is Norwegian. Oh yeah).

Are nightmares that repeat themselves worst? Or is new nightmares every time worse?

And special thanks to Joel for being cool, funny, sexy, smart, awesome and kind and helping me not freak. Thankyou Yoel, when you become my assistant this will give you a nice Christmas bonus.

Cheers for now

Sunny

Awkwardness.

Do you remember the first time you had to buy your own tampons? How you had to have them as soon as possible, and for some reason you couldn't call mum and have her buy it? You became really nervous and a man just had to be managing the counter? Then you buy it, and it seems the man is more embarrassed than you are, and after that it's alright.

Well, today I had to take a trip to the pharmacy to get something one doesn't really want to buy. It was in the prescription-free line, and the pharmacy was relatively empty. At least I knew no one. So I go and tell the lady behind the counter what it is I desire, and luckily it's placed directly behind her. A hint of hope that this will go smoothly rushes through me in a polite smile. She places it on the counter and suddenly runs off somewhere, leaving me standing there.

It just lies there, in a very indiscreet package - type lime green and white - mocking me for a few minutes that seem like hours. She comes back and says "I was looking for a pamphlet but it seems like we're out." And then she looks up at me, and says something quite degrading to me. Or, well, it wasn't meant degrading but I was offended.

In the end everything went well.

How do you feel about buying things like this? Are you easily embarrassed or offended?

Cheers for now

Sunny

Disposable cam; London

We had a disposable camera, stupid fucking local photo shop didn't develop all the photos, but we feel satisfied with the result anyhows.

Cheers for now

Sunny

Great lulz

So I was (supposed to be) tidying my room, and had a tiny coffee brake. So I did what most people do, I sat myself behind the screen and lol'd around on the internet(s). At this blog I found a very lightly entertaining game called Pandemic. Trying to drink my coffee and pass time I tried it out.

And even though Europe seemed to outlive me every single time, no matter how hard I tried, it didn't occur to me until I had tried several times what kind of geographic genius that has created this game.

New research now seems to state that Europe is bigger than Asia, pigs can fly and I am now a porcupine. I don't know what kind of education this person has, but I presume he and Miss teen South Carolina went to the same school..

Cheers for now

Sunny

Hairy mess.

I'm dying (being melodramatic, thnxx). I'm changing as a person, and I need something new; I have to change my hair. I'm pretty torn though; short, keep it long? Something crazy? The usual? Whattodoooo. I swear I'll be fifty before I know how to decide this on my own.

This is pretty much how I wear my hair now a days:

Messy and up in a bundle.

Let's say it like this (just to illustrate how desperately I need change); every time I let my hair down, people ask me if I've always had this long hair or if I wear extensions.

I've got like lots of photos with different hairstyles. But being lazy as I am, if I'm actually gonna get a haircut, I'm gonna need something that doesn't need to much styling. E.g, no way am I ever gonna curl or straighten my hair everyday, I avoid hair products if I can and the hair asseccory I use are headbands, scrunchies and sometimes hairpins (if I can be arsed, which is rare)

Possibilities.

A style where I can do both of these, would be awesome. I can look stylish (as stylish as Sunny can be, at least) for family events, hardcore for going out, and if I sleep with wet hair I bet I'll look alright for school.

The one at the left is well daring, but I think it still looks cool. Only problem is I'd have to cut my hair a lot with the hairdressers, which is often avoided purposely. The one on the right is something I've been pondering to do for months, but I'm not sure if my face/body can pull of that length.

Pretty much the same with these two. I guess it's obvious that I want something I can sort of rough up, but I still want to be able to look formal/presentable.

Since I'm not sure if I can pull off short hair because I have kind of a butch and athletic built body and I'm afraid of looking like a man. A mix of these two would be nice, I'd have length, but still the possibility of being soft and cute when needed.

Again, the short hair. I want something that is chopped and a bit layered like this. Because then it wouldn't be hard styling it. And, well, I suck at styling hair and I'm well lazy in the mornings, I need something easy but sound.

I'd like the length and style of the one to the right, but the style of the one to the left as the top, or whatnot.

I liked the back of this one. And the bangs to the one on the right, but I'm afraid both will need too much maintenance ;_;

I've also considered that the thing is that I AM too lazy, and if I just kicked myself in the be-hind and started making an effort, I might not have to get a haircut at all.

More possibilities.

Yes, I want to be glamorous, gracious and classic sometimes as well. This is the reason why I want to keep my length, because hairstyles like this look gorgeous.

If I just trim myself a little bit (yes, I'd rather blame myself than any other person), something around one of these hairstyles are a possibility. But if I do that the opportunity of being gracious sort of disappears.

If I get my bangs back the one to the left is a possibility, and if my bangs aren't too long I can also do the one to the right is also possible. It would require some sort of perm, though, since my hair is straight and fuckingly boring naturally.

I dunno how I'm gonna do the one on the left, because my hair isn't that thick. And considering the one to the right, no, not gonna cut it like that, but the same style. I'm pretty sure that if I'm inventive and optimistic enough I'll find a way to do something similar at least.

I reaaaaally want curls. In that way. Real bad.

A length that would be able to provide me with both a bit rough hair at the same time as gracious (to a certain degree). But I don't think it's neither rough or gracious enough.

These are simple. Especially the one to the left, since I have a gazillion headbands by now. Only thing is that my head is too round and my hair to shitty to be that straight. Soo, mrs Right side here is better. It will probably require me getting up 5 am just to fix it, but I'm sure it'll look alright if I just get it right.

So I need help, severely.

Advice taken, thankyou.

Just for the fun of it

Cheers for now

Sunny